Toys I never had
Toys I never had
Playing with nephew; saw the amount toys,
I tried to remember the memory of my father giving me that joy;
Not a thought of happiness tickles my mind,
There was only whiplash out; I can hear my own cries
Like it was yesterday, that there belt marks on my back
Was I born out of love; of just a proving man; ball sack
I doubt ever my extinctions ever matters,
Maternal love also has my heart shattered
The constant comparison between me and my younger brother
Like I was useless one; he was championed out of our bunch
I know not what to do or say,
Was I born out of wedlock or mistake to this day?
Was I conceptualized too early to play my part?
After all out trillions of sperms cell; I was developed at last
Born to this family; with corpses, the dead heart grows
My childhood was something;
I seldom remember; except for hit and blows
In my loneliness, I do cry so painful yearning
My heart is under a porcupine while sleeping
The small pricks like thousand needles touch and go
Please take away this pain; hit me till I can breathe no more