The Girl Who Smiled

Today...was a strange day

It was...just different

I saw something that shook me

Something that made me think

I was in the exam hall

Thinking I was on the bloodiest battlefield

Everybody was anxious and biting nails

Frowns were visible on every big fat face

But in the midst of all this

I saw eyes that shone

A face that glowed

A smile that never faded off the face upon which it bestowed

I followed the footsteps from the entrance to the bench behind me

I felt that God had chosen the day to be the best for me

I wasn't worried about the exam anymore

It was her whom I thought of throughout the furor

I told myself to ask her for an answer, just to hear her voice

That was when a hand touched my shoulder and I rejoiced

She only asked what the time was, I answered stuttering

How was I to tell her that mine had stopped right there and then

The exam ended and I lost track of her in all the commotion

I was angry at myself throughout the ride in the cab to the station

But then again, somehow God was way too forgiving on me

I saw her bright face, her eyes still happy and gleaming

This time I wasn't to let go

So I walked towards her and stood just a step away

I was sure in my mind to ask for her name

But somehow the words got stuck at the tip of my tongue rebelling as if this was a charades game

However, she saw me from the edge of her eye

She turned, almost, and smiled

That's when I saw the tear falling out of her eye

I couldn't understand what was happening

On one hand she was smiling on the other tears filled her eyes

But, alas, before I could ask

All I remember is hearing the sound of the train

And the frightening image of her jumping in front of it

I can't seem to forget her glowing face

And how it asked for help, one last time

I can't forget how her smile faded away as the train grew closer

I was horrified and my legs stuck to the ground

I couldn't move, it happened so fast

Her face, what I was after, all through the day

Is now after me

It haunts me now, it'll haunt me tomorrow

It's a scar nobody can see, one that I can't swallow