Solace Me

I strive to break free

From the mind running tape.

Drink, drugs and spending,

My motion:

To escape.

Starvation, sex, self harm,

A temporary solution. 

Self sabotage becomes 

An intimate 

Abusion.

My problems seem intolerable,

So I ignore and disregard

The genuine causation,

Like the 

Joker playing card.

My thoughts are too unbearable,

My mind implores for freedom.

I numb the pain with what I can,

My efforts act

Like treason. 

I try to hide the shame, and

Flee from the despondency.

I deliberately exploit myself 

With distractions, set 

To solace me.