Mess
Mess
I see those nightmares coming for me..
I hide myself to rescue behind the crowds.
I see no light coming for me
today my world has stopped.
When I see those thoughts eating my happiness
I run to survive;
To breathe air in my soul.
I run
I run.
behind all the glittery bars
behind all the laughs;
Behind each euphoric moment
there reside darkness in my happy place.
tomorrow I fear.
I fear that nostalgia might eat me up.
I fear all my happy places burning down in ashes.
yesterday I regret
full of insomnia;
I have shed my hard work
messed my timelines
with wreckage and brokenness.
Yesterday I got blind.
in the doldrums of yesterday, today and tomorrow
I’ll snatch a moment to peek through life.
Grab my sneakers
and disappear;
where me and my poetry can have an affair.
In the midst
my soul needs to conquer the monster of what ifs.
Peace in my mind inhaled
and exhaled ought to be the idea of debacle.
Because dear,
struck in the mess of nothing;
I fear everything.