Envy

I've let it get too far.

I cannot think of others,

For I only think of me.

I was so naive.

I didn't know that all love

Eventually turns to hate.

And now I cannot say a thing

And I cannot let them know.

But if I never tell them

I'll never let it go.

I wish I could be happy for them.

And smile at their joy.

But where that happiness once was

Is now an empty void.

Maybe I'm too self-centered

Maybe I'm not that great.

And I'm always really scared

The others see me with hate.

The jealousy overwhelms me

That I'll never be their kind.

But no matter how much I hate these thoughts

They'll never leave my mind

But I know I'm not as important,

My troubles don't run as deep.

But when I smile endlessly,

I feel like I might weep.

But I suppose it's okay,

There's nothing I can do

For all these things I feel inside

Aren't as important as you.