Who Constantly Ignores Me

TO THE ONE WHO CONSTANTLY IGNORES ME,

Maybe I am a little straight forward, but I wish you find someone who would ignore you just the way you have been ignoring me for quite some time now. It hurts a lot, sometimes.

You reply when you feel like it, and you don't when you don't feel like it. On some days, I am your first priority and on some, I don't even make it to your priority list.

People say no response is also a response in itself. When you leave my messages on seen, or reply after hours, it just put my brain into an endless phase of overthinking.

Sometimes I doubt my intentions, sometimes our friendship, and sometimes myself. Am I not good enough to be a part of your life? I tell myself that this time, I will wait for you to "text me first". But then, your "online" status compels me to break that promise. I do it every damn time and regret it immediately. You need to get it in your head that this kills me. Ignoring someone is one thing. Ignoring them for absolutely no reason is another.

You drive me so much pleasure it treating me based on your mood swings. Remember, someday, I will stop all of this. And then, maybe you will miss the notification of that unread message in your inbox.