The uncovered truth of my love

 Yes , I am depressed!

 Yes, I am sick to be surrounded by people!

 Yes, I want you back!

It has been 4 years but I still remember you.

These are the sounds of my heart which often heard as beeps outside.

PROLOGUE:

This is the story of Niha nd Varun and also "A" person.

All the three characters were working in the same health care company with different professional backgrounds.

# I still remember the day I first saw Varun , it was a tough early 5'o in the morning where I and varun worked together to complete an intervention it was complete professionally done not even an eye blinked between us.

One day I was targeted by my manager due to delay in some documents and I thought I would be fired but it was him who helped me first when I reached out and being so anxious of my peace I called varun and said

" I love you" instead of thank you and it was so pure not realted to intimacy but it was my happy word of the hour.

Soon we started to know eachother , comforting eachother virtually but not in-person.

The first meet:

It was completely an unplanned one where Varun asked me Would you like to join me to visit a famous grocery fest in my locality? 

It was Yes , for me then we met each other and  there  was a huge crowd where I felt scary and held t- shirt of varun to feel secure and safe. It seemed to me so comfortable as if it was my dad whom I am holding on but it seemed to be so tough to pass on in that crowd to my surprise varun grabbed me and held my hand so tight and It was a moment .

As days passed by , we were a happy "Go On"

Couple always admiring each other.

But I never noticed that a person was stalking me regularly and it was him 'Mr. A'.

I got a random text on whatsapp by him which was very skeptical, which I discussed with varun also .

As days passed I came to know that he was regularly stalking me which was uncommon for which I felt that I should know whether this madness is true or is there anything fishy? Due to which slowly unknowingly I was becoming and behaving under his control and I did not noticed that how varun was feeling because in my senses it is that Varun and me are something which is so pure and eternal where I couldn't think about any signs of heart break. But I was astonished to notice that Varun is ignoring me which I was not convinced and was impatient , devastated which made me realise that Yes this my Man , this is my Love and it was only him " my Mamma " for my Lifetime.

After realizing the only regret probably to my whole life was that I Couldn't reached him out again.

The first meet:

It was becoming very tough to me being avoided and ignored by varun but I was so inexpressive and completely overtaken by Mr.A and that day I felt the cruel nature of him through his words he conveyed that I was completely betraying varun and loving him, by listening him I bursted out and left the meeting and walked away this time by noticing the behaviour of Mr.A I decided to leave me for life time .

But it was a failure again I couldn't decide because I can't destroy a life because of my decision so once again I bowed my head ignoring my love and happiness but it would not be same till date if varun would stand with me and tried to get me back.

Varun never asked me to stay back he never accepted that it was my ignorance , instability which was the reason that made him lost.

But as I experienced pain and importance of being happy I turned back to him ignoring all the situations that might occur just for him and only for him . The reply I got was "I have moved on " but my heart never accepted that my gut feeling still haunts me that he do love me but something is stopping him which was never said to me .

It was very painful for me to face a Rejection which was unacceptable totally .

Due to social ties nd respecting my family I do accepted the proposal of marrying Mr.A which was completely insensible but I did.

The only wish I ever had was to know an explicit reason for betrayal.

I stopped living and loving quiet a long ago now it's just managing a machine ...

I wish I could skip this situation and get back to him like I do everyday every minute as I breath.