Longing

I failed to love her…

Affection she craved

Fell in silent grave

She needed little attention

enough for her satisfaction

But alas…

All I had was sympathy

As my efforts were void and empty

As I saw her reflection

I felt her desperation

I'm sorry to let you down my dear

But I don't know why I can't see it clear

The reason to not love you without fear

I don't know why my heart is so evil

It has love for everyone

Except one…

I tried to love her

Not just once

Not just twice

But a thousand times

But every time

All were miserable tries

I wish all of this was a pretty lie

I wish I could love you once in a lifetime

I tried… I tried… I truly tried

I tried to see her flawless

I tried to find her beauty

But what a pity...

All I found was dent and scar

I wasn't capable to admire…

I accept she is not perfect but so is no one

But still I found all adequate except one

She is strong in front of everyone

Except one

Yes… that's me

Everyone reminds her of her flaws

Yet she stayed strong…

She tried to persuade me that she is enough

Enough to deserve my love

But still I found it tough

Why?? Why am I so cruel only to her

I wish I would be her lover

What did she do to deserve all this

Well don't ask me this

I don't have answer to these

But I hope someday I could truly love her

And just like a fairy tale

I will confess without any fail

Enchant her with those magical word

"I love me. Will you be my world?"

Hope someday I too could taste selflove

And be proud of my self

Someday I could escape this torture…

I could truly love myself in near future…

Yes, you guessed it right 'she' is none other than 'me'

PS: SORRY I BY MISTAKE POSTED THIS IN STORY CATEGORY