Life Is A Ghetto

Just feel jealous when I see other people riding expensive bikes, flaunting all their expensive possessions and getting all the attention. I can't just take it. I just want to be like him. But at the same time, I remember my mother promise to study hard, get a govt job and improve our abysmal conditions. she also tells me "plz dont try to be like them if your destiny dont allow you". I just want to fuck that destiny that made me a helpless person who am I right now. My ego does not accept it. But that dont change anything. I just play my favourite songs from Spotify playlist. After listening to the songs I feel pumped up and these songs act as a drug for me as I dont need five rupees flake cigarette to drain my emotion. Because for me five rupees is worth and I have seen my mother quarrelling with the vegetable seller for this five rupee.when I ask my mother why are quarrelling with him for just five rupees?.she just say you will know when you will become mature. And yes I have become mature with increasing inflation.