Brother

Today, when I stepped out of house I bought your favorite flowers for you- Lilies. I bought some roses and sunflowers too, since I remember you said they were your second most favorite flowers. They're really beautiful. Unlike you.

It has been 5 years since we met. Chatting with you and talking to you on calls, was the only way that allowed us to talk. I obviously couldn't lose that chance. It was so relieving to come home everyday from work and listen to how you lost another set of your erasers in school. You're such a loser. You always came to me to ask for solutions. Always. You never used your brain. Well, you needed to have one to use it.

Remember they day mom had almost caught you talking to your girlfriend? I saved you. And the day when our parents were called by your teachers for you had misbehaved in the class? I talked to your teacher. You've forever been a kid.

I feel quite weird to say this, but dude. I love you. But I hate you in the same amount. It's more like balanced so don't think you're a nice person. You'll forever be my dumb kid.

Forever.

Lastly, I don't want to be sad. I know you're with me here. Even when dad called me, I didn't believe his words. You're a loser, but.

A, I guess I won't be able to talk about it with you.

Never mind, I am here. See. Here are your flowers. Smile, loser. You're m,y small, loser brother with less brain. Don't even think I'll cry looking at this stone that has your name on it. It's raining, I'm not crying, You know.