Hey there! I feel nothing.
I don’t feel the pretty butterflies giggling around me,
I don’t feel the sturdy dogs howling beside me,
I don’t feel the enchantment when someone passes across me
There is no excitement of youth's tosses
And I am not sad anymore for anyone's losses.
I wonder what has happened to me,
I wonder if this is alright to be.
The scent of the flowers,
The gleam of the cars,
The child's innocent laugh,
The heartbeat's monsoon graph
It might be dumb
But I am here standing all alone.
Staring at the wall continuously
Painting my own canvas on it..
A deep dark nothing.
Watching the fan rotating and wondering if it was me
Flowing like a circular wave
There is no one around
Just my thoughts surround
Embedded in my heart
Are dreams which had part
They haunt me know, they'll kill me soon
Hidden in my smile I got this eerie of gloom.
To feel everything is a curse they say
But to feel nothing might end up your day.
Caged is my mind
Caged is my heart
All my senses feel caged so far.
All I feel is being caged in a bar.
O dear inner self!
Thou thoughts are like braided hair
And full of despair
What they mean to say you know not
You don't even have the will to fight
You're so caught.
Just waiting to find a bulb
Maybe just a flickering one
Which shall symbolize thy heart..indecisive, unsure, incapable of being truly admired...
But just for the sake of love and duty,
You keep on limbering, trying ;
To enlighten the deafening blinding darkness
And leaves me
In this sub urban murkiness.
Ohh this unfathomable nothingness
That entirely fills me up.