I Wrote This For You

With a couple of thousands clutched and a one-way ticket

You disappeared under circumstances mysterious enough

While calling me a liar and

Telling me Bukowski is as cheap as I am

You see I won’t remember your face

Even in the emptiest of rooms

I was born in the arms of a stripped down branch

And the images of falling leaves in the autumn

Have ingrained themselves in me too deeply

To ever forget

So you see

You’re not an as striking image

I push myself in a getaway car

While you call me a fugitive as I try to get away

Don’t reel me back in tonight

My car broke down before I could reach

So now I’m sharing couches with someone’s brother’s friend

And they tell me how Arctic Monkeys aren’t really that scandalous

For a funeral

You told me my bestfriend was hot but she talks too much

Like if a woman talks too much she isn’t attractive anymore

And see

I know you’re not a feminist but you don’t have to be a dickhead

To understand how I don’t want to be better than you

And you don’t have to be this insecure shell of barely human

To understand why my bestfriend will still be my bestfriend

Even if she is too much for you

The other night I dreamt that you held my hand

And I can’t say I didn’t like it but holding

And clutching are two different feelings

And you don’t seem to see a difference anymore

Don’t tell me my girlfriends are ready with a knife

Behind my back

Don’t tell me we are at each other’s throats to impress

Men like you

Who think what are we but pretty things just waiting for the right moment

To attack

You see

When you tell me they are changing me (for the worse)

All I can remember how they held my hair back while I threw up

My 5th shot

Which I took to erase you from my mind

They are the definition of soft

Of light

Of telling me that the world won’t be as bad as I’m imagining it to be

Without you

(Unlike you)

And no

You don’t cause me pain

Or ache

Because saying things can only rattle me so much

And I know that you think I’m nicer than the

Horizon

But are too proud (afraid) to show it

You see

I think you are nicer than the horizon

(Too)