Heart Of Yume!

Rather I have been stranded for years now I kept the brutally crying child in me longing and longing I longed too long still the child was longing for the littlest love that was just was for me in you... 

I always keep hopes in others that's why I am wrong... Why do I love people? Why do I trust them...?... 

The longing child smiles but his cries are a deeper wound to my heart I am always happy satisfied... But oh why it gets heavy for whom... 

I have evolved from all... Yes I am a strong girl I don't want anyone to support me ....i haven't hated now,...even though I am still be made the object of fun... Because I have proven my worth yet... 

The old wounds why won't they heal... I am going crazy to shut over.... Even I tried to kill the weeping child.... But...

In the moment I take a knife to shut it.... My hands tremble and the child tugs in my arms saying I love you.... You are always there for me deepening its cries... 

I wonder how the child lives within me... It's my soul's heart.... I can't kill it I love it... Just love it from moon to the sun.... 

So that's why.... I suffer or it's the suffering of child that makes me suffer.... Thinking about I waste my time like always....

It's just me and my imagination... Sorry to bother it's not a poetic... It's just a melachony I cry.. In a poem...