About Losing Best Friends

You never asked

and I could never tell you,

why I chose

someone else over you.

Not because

the other person had something

more than you or

was a better person

than you.

But for the fact that

we were best friends first

and lovers later.

I wanted to keep my best friend

closer to myself than the lover.

I wanted to run to my best friend

and bury my head in his chest

whenever I feel like,

I wanted to bath

in the happiness that

would drop from

your face, eyes and life.

I wanted to drown myself

in the warmth

when your arms

were around me,

I wanted to wrap myself

with the words

that would fall from your lips.

But it was only later

I understood that

you did not want

any of these from me.

You wanted to be

promoted from

best friends to lovers.

For me it was

not just a change of designation,

it was a shift of tectonic plates

like being thrown

into the universe

without air cylinder.

How would have

I known unless

you had explained it to me,

like you used to do

when you were my best friend.

You would stay awake

entire night just to explain

difficult math theories and

run over thousand times

the same formulas just

to get it into my head.

You never introduced

your side of the story

to my system,

How could you be so selfish!

I remember it is only you

who had said that

there should be nothing hidden

between both of us

and you are the one who betrayed your own words

and snatched all my rights,

I had for my best friend.

How dare you call me a "Cheater"!