I Am Here Only!

Mira was hiding behind the door. The play with playmates had turned into a brawl leading to a fistfight among them. Petrified she ran out of the playground and hid behind a nearby door of a building. That was the time she heard an invisible soft voice assuring her not to be scared, " I AM HERE ONLY "! Busy in fistfight among themselves, none of her playmates noticed her absence. Tired of playing and fighting, all her playmates went back to their respective houses. She also ran towards her house. Mostly she was on receiving end of brawls and fights whether with playmates or siblings. She was often beaten up. She never felt like retaliating. It was not because of any physical weakness, she hated fights and she developed a strong dislike for anyone who resorted to beating to make their point of view clear. Hence she grew up to be a very lonely child confined to her studies. Children being children soon forgot their flights and differences. As usual, they would coax Mira to join them in the playfield but she could not muster enough courage to join them. Gradually she was treated as a gone case by them. Unperturbed by their callings she continued to concentrate on her studies and outshone any of her batchmates. 

Mira had developed natural hatred for violence. As she grew up, she minutely observed the arrogant and violent behaviour of the people. They had the same pattern. Those people often suppressed their own shortcomings in their loud and arrogant behaviour. She went into higher studies of human behaviour on scientific lines. In the process, she encountered many of her own weak points. She had suppressed her own fears by alienating instead of aligning with her playmates, batchmates and siblings. She was scared of them in reality. This fear was obstructing her to have any social life beyond her books. While accepting and acknowledging her weakness, she heard a soft, assuring voice telling her that she was strong enough to take on the world as in any problem, " I AM HERE ONLY"! She wondered why it took her years to listen to this voice again! She always felt rejuvenated whenever she heard the same assuring voice. She fell in love with that invisible DIVINE presence around her. 

With passing years her interest in the study of human behaviour deepened and sooner she became one of the topmost psychiatrists. She was no longer a secluded and lonely person. She was rather a confident psychiatrist with whom many people shared their extremely private and confidential secrets to come over their psychic problems. Initially, she could relate many stages of her life to many such problems in others life. The others felt at ease while unburdening their emotional burden with her. She earned herself a good name for treating psychic diseases. Most of the time surrounded by needy ones, she was no longer a lonely person. She enjoyed her work more when her patients were cured and were mentally healthy again. She was a confident person, not timid or weak anymore. The more she socialized and circulated among people, the more her self-confidence increased. The initial fear of not being able to cure the patients was such a dark secret which she shared with the invisible DIVINE presence around her and which she had gotten over while listening to that soft, affectionate, caring DIVINE voice whispering in her ears, " I am here only!" 

Heading towards the end of her journey of life, to the outside world, Mira's eyes were closed but in her innermost world her eyes were wide open and she was clearly watching everything. Surrounded by family, friends and many known unknown persons, she was standing all alone in hitherto unknown surroundings in her innermost world. Her near and dear ones were shaking her, calling out her loudly to make sure that she listened and acknowledged them but in her innermost world, away from the violence, abuses, sickness she was face-to-face with Divine Presence whose voice was the only voice she loved most and which she was hearing. This was the same voice that was her only confidant in whom she had tried to share many secrets haunting her but this sacred voice seemed to already know her those dark secrets which at times she had felt ashamed to even experience. The same voice had pulled her out of many adversities in her life. Same assuring voice soothingly, softly dispelling all her fears and telling her, " I AM HERE ONLY!" She was thrilled and overjoyed. For the last time, she opened her eyes which shone like crystal clear diamonds for flickering a second with strangely calm happiness and then went totally blank forever, breathed her last for the outer world. Fearlessly entering the unknown world, leaving behind the mortal world, happily, she followed the same soft, assuring DIVINE voice whispering in her innermost world telling her not to be scared as, " I AM HERE ONLY!"