I Don't Know

But only I had his new number. He told me that he would not share this number with anyone else. It was only meant to talk to me. Does it mean, it was me who called him to come at that place. It was our usual spot, where we used to sit for hours and shared our emotions. Also we decided, whenever we go to that place, we would always go together. He was found dead at that spot only. Does it indicate, I killed him? I don’t know, but why would I kill him. I love him with all my heart. He’s all my heart ever talks about.

I just saw him once with her. But he said, she was just a friend. Was she more than a friend to him. Was he cheating on me, I don’t know.

Did she kill him? But why would she. Was she falling for him and realized that he was involved with me. Or did he deceive her by not telling about our relationship, which she got to know somehow. I don’t know.

Then who killed him. I don’t remember killing him. But then, I even don’t remember, what I was doing that day.

I can easily remember him telling me that he would be out of town that day. But he was found dead at our usual spot, which is inside the town, the same day only. Why did he lie to me? Did he want to kill me? Was he the one, who asked me to come to that spot that day? Did I really go there? I don’t know.

But he would always say that he would never hurt me. I mean the world to him. Was she really more than a friend? Was our relationship over and he wanted to get rid of me? But then, why is he dead and I am alive? Did he try to kill me which I protested and he was killed accidentally? I don’t know.

Should I ask for more investigation to get justice for him or should I just be quiet to save myself. I don’t know.