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It was 08th April 2017 at SAP Lab Whitefield. She had to represent her product portfolio in the grand seminar, meant for Innovative Ideas for Startups.

She had practiced very well for that moment, but she could not present the way she wanted. Why? (Pause). What happened to all those things that she had practiced, the way of presenting smartly, skillfully, cleverly?

She could not present the way she wanted to because of the “shyness”.

Yet another failure, she was really disappointed, dejected and devastated.

But looked herself and said, “Relax, calm down and never give up”.

It is said that “Shy People notice everything, but they don’t get noticed…”

The person whom I am talking about is very good friend of mine. She is very shy, But She is a casual writer, reader, dancer and also a bathroom singer.

I love the way she writes and delivers her speeches. She can talk in front of a room full of people without as much as shy away. She knows how to alter the timbre and voice. She radiates confidence. She can instruct and invite you to a world of Philosophy and knowledge giving you a glimpse of information on things that you'd probably never have thought of before. She can be a storyteller, and make you feel a part of her tale - spinning a web of emotions around you as she enthralls you deeper and deeper into her story. She can also throw some sorts of jokes towards you whether you are laughing or not.

But, she is not able to engage her audience, not able inspire by creating a vision of her stories, not able to communicate clearly of any social message and not able to create visual world.

When I take a glance at her and try to understand, I found out that she is not at all that she actually appears to be. At any social gathering, for convenience sake, in spite shyness, she walks up to you and says- “Hello, you really hosted it very well”

But there would be awkward silence, uncomfortable smiles from other side. Hence she always try to evade from that situation.

After all those tries, made to move away from shyness, she again and again getting into to the same situation. But she says herself to her inner feelings, not to give up.

My friends, who is very shy, whom I am talking about here, it’s no one else but it’s me, it’s my inner face. I have been constantly fighting with this from many years to overcome, day by day I am getting better.

“Shyness has a strange element of narcissism, a belief that how we look, how we perform is truly important to other people…”

I always panic every time when I walk into the room full of people instead of Socializing.

I always sit in that corner of every meeting, just only smiling when someone talks to me.

I could deliver speeches with aplomb but cannot bring warmness among the audience and I always go home with the feeling of dejected after every social event and cried.

I always thought of getting away from the shyness, gets up, tried again and again.

I wanted to tell you something, “Whenever I evaded from the conversion with you saying I have an appointment or pretended like attending the call and moved way” is because of shyness.

I tried harder and harder every day to overcome this like an addictive person confront with his habit to overcome.

So today, I am putting my story in front of you to face this challenge of shyness.

Don't dismiss me instead Bear with me.

One day I will speak loud and speak proud without shyness. I might be boring you today with my story, but wait and see, you will feel the difference in me and in my stories.

“Shyness is a strength to build on, not a character flaw to be stamped out…”