Not sending a single message just saving her WhatsApp DP as her contact ID. And just looking at her picture when she has hidden her DP from me. Deleted my contact or whatever. Just watching her there online and staring at her picture. Well this is one of my friends. I was also in this same phase a few months ago but now it's all over.
Neha was a very charming girl. I have seen her a lot of
time but never felt so connected. But last time she passed cross me. It felt
something else it was just as if I have missed a heartbeat or two.
It was all so different who was always there in front of
me and I never felt so connected. And now all of a sudden it was a different
feeling for her. I don't know what was so amazing about her face or her eyes. I
was getting madder every second.
It all started a few years back we were in the same
college. Well to be precise it was 5 years back when all this started. Neha was
the most beautiful girl I knew in the campus. I wanted to know her and to my
surprise she was my friend's sister. Who was actually my best friend, the
person who is still always by my side. And who knows each bit of my life. But
this thing! This thing I kept hidden from him. I never got a chance to talk to
her but knew much about her. As things like she had a boyfriend and they were
truly in love with each other.
So I was staying away from her. But one day, I got a
chance to talk to her. As she knew I was brother's best friend. She helped me
with my chemistry practicals. She was an intelligent girl but she wasn't
arrogant. She was too sweet and it felt like heaven talking to her.
I was in a situation when I wasn't able to tell her my
feelings nor could I stop thinking about her. I even got her phone number. We
used to chat but she was too far for my feelings and I never told about it to
anyone not even my best friend.
So my friend was in this situation too now. And it wasn't
simple to suggest him a way out of this cause I was never able to get out of
it. But everything has a way out. No maze was created without a way out. But
it's truly hard to find that way and its really relaxing after that. I didn't
suggest him anything but had a lot in my mind to say but I always knew it won't
be easy to implement them.
This wasn't only a case. There were many complicated
things around. A friend of mine was getting mad due to some reason. And when I asked
him about I could stop my laugh. Well it was the scenario but the statement
that made me laugh. This is what he said. " I was never in love with her.
She fed me with love and then blamed me for falling in love with her."
This made me laugh cause this was a thing that reminded me of someone.
I told you a part of my life that happened few years back.
This story also belongs to the same phase. As I knew I was wrong falling in
love with a person who was already in relationship and also my best friend's
And then I met Shreya. It was the time I was in some
coaching class and I admired her for a long time but not in that manner but
suddenly it all grew intensely in me. Maybe because of the blank spaces that
have been created in my heart because of Neha. Well whatever it was I felt all
those spaces being filled by her. And a possession developed in me for her. And
I told her everything but she was a person who was very away from these kind of
things. She had never been in love with anyone and never wanted to be a part of
it either. And then I too received that sentence that changed every guys live.
No, she didn't accept my proposal, she just said , " I
like you but as a friend!" But somewhere I knew I wasn't stopping here.
And I continued talking to her day and night chatting calls whatever because I was
happy with it.
And one day she said she had started liking me. I was mad
and wasn't able to think of anything at that time. We were to young and didn't
know how to handle this happiness. But it was my first love and of course it
was exciting for me. It was good for a long time but then I felt somewhere I was
disturbing her. She had got her scores degrading test by test on the other hand
my scores they were rising and rising. And somewhere I started getting reviews
of her scores from my friends and it made me sad. Cause I was the reason. I was
the reason for her loss. So I called out for a breakup. She acted strong while I
hid my tears cause I knew I couldn't resist this distress.
And the very next day I was crying in front of her for
some love. But you know once proved weak in handling the relationship you could
never din the heart over again. Its been 2 years and I am still waiting for
Then one day I got an SMS on my mumma's phone. "Rohan
please contact me ASAP its urgent" I was shocked who this person was and
how that person got my mom's contact. I was worried so I contacted that person
on WhatsApp and to my surprise it was Riya. She was a cute girl from my
previous batch and it took me no time to realise that my best friend face her
my mom's number.
Well she wanted something which she had misplaced and
thought that it came down with my notes during our last meeting. Soon we
started talking so often . Late night chatting and all the fun that happened
made me happy. Cause it was removing the dullness that came across my heart
while I was in the phase when I wanted my girlfriend back to me. Well I am
talking about Shreya.
But somewhere I knew I can never forget my first girl ever
in my life. So I never took a step further and even warned her once telling her
that I have a girlfriend. My best friend told me that it was too rude to
talking to her like that. So I felt embarrassed and asked sorry from her. Which
gave her a reason to explore me. And I didn't disallow her cause I have to pay
for my misbehavior now. She got a chance to know me more. Pierce through my
pain and stitching all the wounds that Shreya gave me. I didn't like all this
so I wanted to get away but she didn't let me go. Somewhere I was felling for
her and I realized this late. I never wanted to be a part of love story again
but I was felling in a pond which was actually a mussy zone the more I moved
more I went deep in. And when I told her about what I was feeling. She had
already found someone else. Why did she made me fell for her when she had
someone in her life already. Well it was a nice experience and now I know how
to react to such situations.
Well heart broken again but my friends helped me get out
of this. So now I was the person who is helping everyone out there now.
Suggesting what to do what to believe and what not to. It was all fun helping
everyone until you are in a situation when you don't know who is right when
both sides you have your own friend. Then you look out for the situation and
how to manage the thing in a proper manner. But what if you realise that its
none other than your same story and whom side you are taking right now is
coincidentally playing the role of the girl who rejected you.
This is not too old from now. Not more than a year back.
Neha joined in the same college. Yes the same charming Neha. I was helping her
with the new environment and had met her many times. And soon all my feelings
for her were returning slowly and slowly. I wanted to quit and I started to
prefer some distance from her. And it was working, it was getting back to
normal. But one day I received some different kind of msgI didn't understand
what was happening and suddenly I proposed her. It got so awkward cause she
wanted to say "No" without breaking my heart. And I took no time to
understand this. I told all this to my best friend. And he advised me to stay
away from his sister. And he was correct somewhere and I realized it already.
And I did what I was advised to. So it was all cool now. We didn't talk much
and I was already away from all this and we were just friends. I started
treating her as my sister. Maybe this way it was helpful to get rid of all these
feelings. Cause I never found another way out.
I heard everyone used to tease my best friend by Disha's
name. Cute girl of his class and somewhere I saw he had a crush on her and it
was vice versa too. As everyone said. So I wanted to make this out . I know it
wasn't good to involve in this matter but of course she deserved to be my
sister in law. Well I also knew he couldn't initiate a talk with her so I tried
my luck. I have heard she never replies to unknown senders so I needed a
correct moment. And I got it somehow. It was her birthday I wished her. She
replied with a thanks. Tomorrow's mine I added. She laughed and replied okay I will
wish you tomorrow. And we both sent smileys. Next day she wished me and I asked
her if she even knew who I was. She asked me about me and I told her to guess
and the game started. I told her your class's smartest guy is my best friend.
She made a lot of guess and finally I told her my friend's name. And she
laughed . I asked why she laughed and she told me that he wasn't on her friend
list even. she said I never talk to strangers but it was funny talking to you.
And one day I met her. She was too beautiful and I knew somewhere my friend was
too lucky if it worked. But he wasn't ready to take step further. She was cute
and I was talking about my friend to her. She wasn't feeling comfortable so
often. And we started talking about each other as a friend. And it was fun. I found
many things common in us both. She was too passionate for her career and this
thing I admired in her. I was doing my best to get them both together but then I
got answers from both that they weren't interested. But in all this I happening
got a very nice friend. I shared my personal life with her even. I don't know
but I always felt it so me in her. Talking to her felt heavenly . Her funny
mood and talks always made me cheerful.
I was finding myself in her I was getting lost in her. But
this was wrong as I never had these intentions I was just helping my friend.
And this was really wrong but my friends they fed that Disha was better than
Neha and all these things confused me a lot. And one day I told her that I had
started liking her. She told me it was fine but I shouldn't go further since
she doesn't want to involve in love affairs . She was focused towards her
career and don't want to lose that.
I accepted this fact and stayed like a friend and days
passed but my love for grew stronger. But I resisted every time. Sometimes it
was too strong . And still I managed it somehow . But one day I proposed her
and I was blocked . Well I deserved it. But few days later I was unblocked and
her beautiful heart gave me another chance. But it wasn't all like before and I
told her that it was getting poor and I was more in love with her. I was
blocked again. This time I felt really sorry and asked her not to do so. And
this time it was all good until she told me about the guy who proposed her. And
she felt like accepting his proposal. I thought I was distracting her from her
career and what was happening now. She was felling in love. I know she chose
him for a reason but it was like she was cheating me. And I said I cant talk
anymore now and even you wont be able to. there were messages between us and in
the end I was blocked again.
That night I cried a lot. I wasn't able to speak to anyone
I didn't face anyone the next day for few weeks I was all alone even standing
with my friends didn't make me feel that inner peace. But all my friends helped
me get out of it but it was all too late I already spoiled my semester and I was
ruining everything. My friendship with others . My relationship with my family.
I was getting rude and was spending more time alone.
Until one day...
I received a message from Neha.