1st love means a lot. I was 14 and fell in love with the strangest person, the one who was taller than me, fairer than me. Though getting into this relationship was so difficult but finally i was in relationship with that guy. Everything seemed to be so special and different which i can't even explain.... Months flew away. So many ups and downs were waiting on the way...
Aah! love is not easy, its not at all easy.
Its a source of hurting yourself, late night chats, crying, blushing... These things became shit to me. When he ditched me. Promises had come to an end.
He cheated on me,
He said "sorry, i loved you but now i love someone else."
I was like "Why, why with me..?"
I pleaded him to stay.
But he flew away as the time passed by...
NOW i m 17
Relationships did not matter to me.
But strangely a guy entered my life, proclaiming that he really loved me.
Again this guy was fairer than me, smarter than me, maybe many girls were behind him.
I was again in a relationship.
He said "Relationship becomes stronger within 2-3 days, no long duration is required, if the bond is created, its created nobody can break it."
That touched me deeply.
Again same things went on... late night chats and calls and laughters..
It was 21st march 2017.
He said, "I want break-up."
It was like my dreams were shattered in front of my eyes .
I couldn't even ask him the reason.
I was startled.
Where were his words now..? I guess he had kicked them off.
It took me so long to become normal but now I don't give a damn about him.
He lost me, not I. Rather I found myself.
I know I have to be self-dependent.
Finally now I am an adult .... 18 year old .
I am mature enough.