It's Not Easy To Say "NO"

Real life based story

After long when i visited to see my friend, that was shocking to see a scholar into depression whom we used to say beauty with brain. When i asked her about reasons , she told me that.......

Here comes the worst year of my life. 2017 YES! last year it was that changed my whole life.

It started, when I went to my Landlord in Mumbai (l was not staying at home"Delhi"). During that time, for some paper work that needed to be done before I leave his PG.

He was very depressed, that the whole fucking year he didn't get what he wanted to do with me.

Mark my words, he is 70 years old man, has

grandchildren of my age and is half paralysed, said that '"Lapakshi", do not go to Bihar or UP ever, or else they will kidnap you and would do everything with you because you are very beautiful. Just because, Delhi has some

laws so you are still safe otherwise, "KABAKA UTHA LETE TUJHKO".

I always thought that after all the experiences of my life , I have become a strong personality and will kick a molester ass off when situation comes, "NO! WAIT I WAS WRONG.

I didn't utter a single word so he continued telling me his sex stories in different countries that

how he made out in UK, FRANCE, GERMANY, "SOUTH.

He said, "American girls are just amazing when it comes to sex" among all.

I'm telling you" there was also a brazilian girl who challenged me that I can't give him better sex than her boyfriend.

She looked like you. Everything is same, just

that she was a little fairer, she was best & most beautiful like you" and guess what Lapakshi!

I did non- stop sex for 8 hours & after that SHE STOPPED ME AND SAID that it was her best intercourse, (who on EARTH can do for such a long, even being a layperson) l can guarantee he was not a normal Homo sapiens, he was such a big creepy shit on the earth.

Then came the punch line, "he tried buttering, money power, discounts, compliments nothing worked.

Now, because I look like a modern girl, I might be

looking for someone who can do non-stop 8 hours sex.

So, he asked me to try 10 library boys and even my boyfriend and said, "NOBODY CAN GIVE YOU THAT SATISFACTION".

Seeing that creepy face, sent shivers down my spine, for that moment and I thought, what is he saying?

I ran straight to my friend and asked them, "How do l look like? what do you think when you see me? Am I a slut or a prostitute?

Yes! I used this same word.

"Does my face look like a call girl?", I asked again.

Please answer me very sincerely what do I have to change?

My friends from the same PG tried convincing me, but I made a decision in my mind that how to not look like a call girl because I thought I might be looking like a call girl so he is asking me for sex.

I went to the monday market bought 50 rupees torned top and lower, changed my smart phone into normal button phone, I stop putting lipstick

(YES! IT WAS IT, LIPSTICK SEEMED APPEALING)

lipstick is for call girls, I thought. I also stopped doing comb to my hairs, stopped exercising.

At last I went into mental depression & gained 18

kgs (53 to 71KGS) in 8 months.

Simultaneously, I stopped studying, tried

sleeping so my childhood harassment story, and recent memories do not haunt me.

Fighting with Career, depression, harassment I turned into a girl without ambitions.

I started alcohol,smoking and got addicted to it.

I was in a phase of committing suicide, calculating the risk involved, jumping from 2rd floor of my house, started drinking regularly that too only neat and shots (so I can sleep in peace where I will not be scared of my surroundings), asking my friends to arrange weed.

I was missing my family so much and one day my brother came to meet me.

When he saw me, he was also stunned and asked why I have gained so much weight? why l'm not taking care of my health?

My hair was turning grey, wrinkles started showing up, He was the one, who noticed every change in me.

He tried to convince me, to look beautiful again but it could not work. He tried to apply makeup on my face but i rubbed it.

At last, when nothing worked, he advised me to start smoking once in a week. YES! (A man of rules who never smokes said all this to me) and gifted me Wine and other bottles, he took me out to a bar and told me to drink as much as l can.

He looked at me with so much patience and

hopes, then he compelled me to join a gym to be fit and to show my anger, depression, fear to those machines even though he was not knowing, what I have been going through.

He started telling me ways to be happy, to dress up daily, to put on lipstick because I love it. To go out every weekend with friends, and do not just force yourself for anything, you are born to fly.

HE SAID,"LOVELY YOU ARE OUR TOPPER BETA".

My brother was trying to help me, but I was the one who was reluctant to come out of depression.

He inspired me till the time, I decided to start afresh, he never gave up then I thought, why would l ?

I had my brother beside me, my family is with me. I regret of not telling them everything on time. It would have been very different today. I would have not suffered because of sexual predators.

To be honest l'm not beautiful also, not at all I'm an average looking girl do not confuse it being a beautiful girl so I have experienced this, NO! See me in real Beautiful or not, they (sex predators) would tarnish your self-esteem at every point.

many times, I could not say, "NO" simple two words. It is not easy to say NO, it is not easy to react, it is not easy to fight back, it is not easy to come out of your fear.

( Based on true story )

Its not only she who have been suffered for beauty but many girls are being molest for many purpose and still going on.