Undestinated Search

I can't go back in time
To the day just before we had met 
And make the next day never arrive
And avoid this today we are in
The goodbye, which won't ever bring in a new 'hello'.
No other ambition of mine was stronger than you
No other passion deeper than you.
In a barren land, I am walking like a sleepless wanderer
Hopelessly waiting for shelter.
I really don't have an idea
How far I can go on
They say we get used to the pain
But trust me, with each second instead of any darn
It intensifies,

I just wanted to tell you that I am leaving,
Today evening.
Trying to seek out a meaning
Of this life, of my existence
At all if it exists.

Maybe a call, a message or even a missed call if you could...
Or probably none, if you like it that way,
I just wanted you to know:
I STILL L...