Someone help!
Someone help!
I said I would be okay,
But I never really was.
I said I would be better,
But I couldn't stop falling too far.
It wasn't as if I could help myself,
It was as if I couldn't protect myself.
There were millions of millions,
Thoughts running across my head.
All those possibilities,
All those mistakes coming to haunt again.
So I took the drink,
And let myself stop from feeling.
I thought if only today,
I wish I could stop failing.
I drained glasses after glasses,
Bottles after bottles.
Wish I could have stopped there and then.
My head wasn't mine,
My soul was estranged.
I wish I could let myself be more than a halfhearted fine.
But today wasn't my day,
And tomorrow didn't want me to stay.
I took the drink,
Watching destruction in me calm
As I took the sip of the warm poison.
Killing my own wits.
It was better if I died,
Both from inside and out.
Rather than live to see myself fade out.
I took the drink,
I hoped it would become my best friend.
Feeling abandoned,
Feeling forgotten,
Feeling not much of worth.
I took to the bottle,
So I couldn't let myself be alone.
So I could be everything I never was.
I don't know when it became my solace,
I don't know when it became my salvation.
I don't know since when I relied on it so much,
That I forgot my own existence.
I couldn't go on any longer without it,
I couldn't salvage my own self.
What I was,
Was no more a fraction of my degrading mental health.
I don't want to be this person,
I don't know if I could save this situation.
I am trapped in this habit,
I am trapped in this sickness.
It's a never-ending mileage,
I do not know if I could stop anymore.
I think I am drowning in my sorry self.
I wish I never took the glass in the first place
When I can't stop myself from taking more.
Someone help,
I don't know if I can get away.
I am not being stubborn.
I genuinely have no idea of how to get help.
Someone, please save me from me,
Someone, please stop me from getting another one.
Someone help!