Pain

Pain, pain, pain,

life's no game.

Hoping for a better tomorrow,

yet drowned again by sorrow.

Striking straight, my heart & brain,

avoiding with all my might yet it strikes again.

Tears flowing like rain,

will I be able to stand again?

Like stabbing a knife in my heart,

on ECG, a plane line only will hit the chart.

'Beeeeepppp' from it the sound will come,

telling me that my life is done.

But still I am alive,

because those were just fantasies in the hive.

Wounded & hurt, my heart still beats,

don't know where my fate meets.

People Blaming me & giving excuse,

'though I deserve it, still I didn't get it' I amuse.

By God, I feel so betrayed,

I would have been happy even if the balance between pain & pleasure stayed.

But my life is 99% pain & 1% pleasure,

difficulty, betrayal & suffering only my treasure.

On my side, there wasn't any room for empathy,

on other's side, I don't think I need sympathy.

Because pain is all I deserve, 

so keep nothing in reserve.

In full force, let the hell break lose,

if it's all you choose.

Just don't involve my beloved ones,

Because they have been good that ever happen to scum like me, demons.

Suicide is not an option,

depression is also not up for adoption.

Because if it happens only people important to me would cry,

seeing from above; a second time I would die.

So on me, bring it all on,

because for happiness of someone special my life will go on.