The Difference Between You And I

The difference between you and I is...nothing!

Yes, the difference between you and I is nothing. The only difference is that I write about my life for the whole world to see and judge.

I am a single mom, I have two girls that I am trying to raise the right way. 

I worry about them constantly and pray they go the right way, that they will find peace and joy, that they won't do the things I've done. I worry about whether I did the right thing, did I wait too long to leave their abusive father and what that did to their psyche.

I work full time at a business I started from scratch 8 years ago and then I do hair on the side. I volunteer at church, I work out every morning, I write this blog every day. I have issues with my ex and I have relationship issues, I have horrible dating stores. Yes, I am just like so many of you out there.

There are days that I don't want to get up and work out, there are days I'm hurting and I'm tired, read last week's blog if you don't believe me because here I tell it like it is.

I get home late many evenings and everyone is pulling at me. I need this, you said you would do that... there is never enough time in the day just like so many of you. I have bills, things come up unexpectedly, why is gas going up so much? Why do I get so many dick pics? Oh lord dating the dating hell but that is a whole other blog.

I used to get worried, how am I going to do this on my own? For 24 years I had someone doing and taking care of everything, so can I do this? He always said I could never make it on my own, was he right? Yes, many nights I am so overwhelmed I cry myself to sleep. 

I miss having someone to count on, to lay on the couch and watch movies with, to hold me and tell me it will be alright. I miss having someone to spoon with at night. Yes, we all feel the same feelings, but I, as my girlfriend says, have the biggest balls she's ever seen (her words not mine) to put it all out there for the whole world to see.

My hope is that there is one woman out there that is in a horrible situation, that doesn't think she could ever do this. Someone reading this who has no self esteem, no faith, no hope, and I want her to read my words and know that anything is possible if you believe. Yes, it won't be easy but it will be so worth it! I want them to know my deepest darkest fears and my greatest joys and all the emotions they will feel in between, but most of all, I want them to know they are not alone and it will be okay. No, it will be better than okay, it will be incredible, beyond your wildest dreams if you only step out of your own fear.

Yes, and then I will tell you just when you thought you had truly found happiness and a man you thought loved you, you will be deceived and lied to. Your world will fall apart again, you will go through hard times and heartbreak and some days you won't think you can make it. It will feel like the whole world is against you, you'll think I don't want to go on. I am here to tell you as long as you have faith, as long as you believe to whoever is your higher power, that it will be alright, you will get past that and come out even better than before!

So today my friends remember that the only difference between me and you is that I put out my whole life in writing this blog. I write about what you are thinking and feeling, I am brutally honest because I know where you're coming from and I know the journey is so worth it.

So keep believing, keep hoping, keep dreaming, never give up and if you need to know you're not alone, keep reading my blog, because I am your biggest cheerleader and I know that if I can do it, so can you.