Special Child of God

In mirror hour am writing this

3.31am, I am unable to sleep, it's not like that am upset, or depressed but I am more happy, I am filled with happiness 

I never knew about the person to whom I will meet will filled with such magnetic energy, I saw him for the first time 

24th December 2021 approx 5pm, in Grey zipper , and in one hand his eagle helmet, he didn't observe me, but my first glance was his eyes his hair, nose. Ear, height, beard. I stare him continuously 

It was not like that, I started liking him like a dramatic bollywood movies. But yes I was getting spiritual chills (goosebumps) I really wanted to talk to him, Whenever he was present near by me 

I felt positivity, In the whole 26 years, I had seen many boys, but this guy is kinda different. I like the way he respect every women, his way of seeing is pure as 22 carat gold .

That was his first impression was impacted on me, As we both are working together, obviously everyone comments "ohh what she is very wearing"

"ohh hoo couples lovey douvey"

He is the person who is devoted to his work, he loves his works passionately that's makes him more attractive, He doesn't care about anyone but he never hurt anyone by his words or action. No matter whatever the situation he handled it very smoothly, I admire his way of working, he might think that am staring him... Yes I do , I do, But most specifically I stare him in a very pure way, the movements of his body, when he nod his head, when his finger types the keypad, when he cut the lemon and squeezes and pour into the glasses , the way he shakes the drinks in a lovable way it makes the drink more delicious.... I am personally fan of his fruit punch and cold coffee

No one can beat his cocktails and mocktails a very honest statement by me as being a foodie, My eyes will never sleep if I get chance to see him 24/7.

Whenever I ask the question to my heart it always responded " he is a special child" he makes me happy by his presence, My tears turns into smile

Day by day he became precious for me, His smile is like bunny, very cute... I love when he take care me like a little baby. I feel safe with him because my inner child knows this man may get angry but he will always make her smile at any cost

I feel grateful that am so much blessed that to whom I like so much he cares not only for me but for my family as well... I am the observer of surroundings and he is the observer of Me... I don't have to utter words infront him, He catches my lies quickly... He reads my mind that I realized within two days, 

But in between I am feeling guilty, the person who takes so much care of me, I hurted him through my words and action 

I doubted him.... His sad face made me realized that how much my words had hurted him, this is 2nd night I am still awake thinking about him hurt

That pooja how could you do to him, the person who always made you happy, you made him

He may forgive me or forget the situation but I can't and this makes me more cry every night. I wish I could be right in his arms right now 

Even my sorry is not enough to forgive this, I never wanted to do this stupidity but I did... 

All I can do that I just want to see him calm and happy...