Friendship - Sailing or just floating?

Friendship, a word that can bring smile across people at all ages 

For some it is an ongoing process, for few it will be reminiscing event, 

For many it has always been even a fall in and fall out, meaning even friendhship takes breaks voluntarily sometimes temporarily or permanently

Even friendship suffers heartbreaks, possessiveness, due to vandalism of one's self-esteem

I wish not all friendship does that to you, but you can never deny the fact of being the victim of such toxic friendships too

A friendship which once gave the heart-melting sweet aroma tend to get eventually evaporated

The rise of misundertandings starts messing up in your mind

Over the time, the so called fun giggles of your friends starts interrupting your privacy and puts your friendship on to a mesh where the element of trust began trippling downwards as a residue

Over the time, the concept of making fun by taking your private details in front of others started to be seen as an act of invading your self-esteem

At the end, over time you tend to introspect yourself is she or he is really my real or true friend

Or you question yourself of why he or she has changed a lot

Indeed none of your friends have changed, It's you who have masked the real side of yours with the exorbitant fruitness of the funfilled friendship, just for a social contract

Because we always long for things that we don't have or they have not proven to be yet your perception has and it's absolutely fine 

Despite all these introspection, you still give it a try to hand on to the low hanging fruit of the friendship which is no longer sweet

You still give a desperate attempt for sustaining that friendship by compromising and digesting your hurt 

In reality, we actually forget that the sweet aroma of that friendship is getting evaporated when you begin compromising and digesting things that you feel awkward

May be then we have to question ourselves the overtness of this kind of friendship or is it the compelling situation of maintaining a social contract in an interconnected economy which pulls us to zipped up even if the social contract tries to rip our self-esteem 

Now its time to atleast do the labelling properly instead of intertwining social contracts with friendship which means just a special bond with someone without sharing a blood relationship

I don't take sides of having a true friend because lies are bound to occur at a subjective level

It is not the question of choice with friendship,

Infact it is the biggest question of revealing your identity to them,

We tend to mask this true identity for being accepted, we are also rejecting ourselves without exposing the real in you

I am streamlining the question, Is it friendship or just social acceptance?

Is it friendhship or social groups?

Is it friendhship or fear of non-acceptance?

Is it friendship or fear of being left alone?

Is it friendship or fear of being judged?

If at all friendhship, then why compromising? why this unaccepted level of digest of your own self-etiquette?

If at all friendship, at least it is to have a check on whether the ship is a smooth sail or sinking?

If at your friendship is floating, then it is another level of peril than being sinked?

Because you may have to live with the fear of being wrecked at any time

You can adjust the engine, you can try fuelling it back if at all just floating, 

But when the storm hits, the consequence of floating is just more than worse

If not storm, check if your floating techniques are worth the survival of even a strong wind blow