Blood Lust

I have to take this out of my chest

And put it on the desk

I cannot put this feeling to a rest

So I give myself a quest.

To not do what my heart wants

To ignore the mind's taunts

My jokes to laugh at

Are hiding my dark path

An action considered so evil

But yet a sign of being feeble

But it blocks my fears

Helps to stop my tears

So I have it near

I use it as my wield

To not feel the worries

And that is my shield

Against the life that hurries

The war comes to a stop

Only to get back up at the top

And now I'm sired

To fight the battle of flames itself with fire

As the pain

Surges through my body

I feel more sane

A sense of relief I copy

A pen and a pencil are no use

When the paper is filled

Flesh and bones are no excuse

That the mind has not been thrilled

At a young age

I'm filled with so much rage

In what I feel

I've lost my trust

I cannot heal

Because of this bloodlust